Monday, October 29, 2018

Week 21 -- 'Am Murry'

So apparently in Portugues, NOT ONE WORD ever ends with the sound of 'n' (or a lot of hard consonants like in English) and so every time that I try to describe what my name is people have the hardest time. They legitimately can't form the 'n', AND all of their names end with a lift at the end (sorry a little hard to describe) but all are super fluid and connected like French.  So when it comes to my name Anne Marie people usually get flustered and confused and usually turns into a very beautiful "ahh.. so it's Am Murry???" Which just gets a lot of pitiful glances. #smhmom #callmeMarialikeeveryoneelsenexttimepls

Had a pretty hard-stopping experience this week with my companion on the way back from a meeting with our new ward mission leader, who by the way lives about a 45/50 minute walk from our apartment.. at 9 at night.. with no one around.. around the borders of the arena Das Dunas

 (Look it up! It was built for the World Cup one year and is shaped with one overhang taller than the other to catch and circulate the winds that blow in from the sea to cool down everyone inside).. which is a place where at least 2 other duplas (pairs) of sisters have been robbed in the past, one with $600 OFLEGIT AMERICAN MONEY IN HER BAG #smh #americanas.  So we are walking with a little urgency, right and we are crossing this little street, when we see this moto that pulls a little U-ey and turns his bike towards us waiting with this giant black helmet and the only thing visible is this cheshire cat bright white smile. I'm like wow okay lets go - lets go - lets go and we turn to rush by and he's saying something but I really just have a little bit of pure blind panic and adrenaline pumping through my body right. But my companion starts walking TOWARDS HIM and I'm like what are you DOING - and it turns out that the words he had been saying were "I'm a bishop, I'm a bishop, I'm a bishop."

Well you could have said that little EARLIER my buddy. 
But it turns out that he served in the same home ward in São Paulo that my companion lived in, and that he had moved here with his family after the mission and it was crazy because AS a missionary, he had passed lunches in her house - and here she was, in HIS home area, serving a mission. God really is amazing sometimes and if there's one thing I have really gained a testimony of so far, it's that He is SO aware of every single one of us on a very individual level. 

I don't remember exactly where (and sorry I forgot my Book of Mormon) but I was reading Alma 33 and it talked about how important it is that we always remember that, and that we are always aware of Him and talking to Him throughout the day - in our work, when we retire to our rooms, and the verse that I really love is when the prophet is praising God in His mercy and to paraphrase- 

"How merciful is the Lord because He heard MY clamors amongst his congregation". 

I thought about the fact that if all of sudden I was unable to talk to Him, that I never prayed or was allowed to have Him know the thoughts and desires, or just the really hard things that no one else really wants to listen to of my heart. I don't think I had ever felt so alone or more lost just at the thought of never having Him there to listen to me through it all. We are so lucky that we have a Father in heaven who listens to us, loves us no matter how much we fall short despite our efforts to do things right and that the reason that He has this mercy on us IS because of the Savior. 

Always try to keep the One who cherishes you more than any other thing in this world close to your heart and I promise that you will have the strength to carry on through those problems and things that feel too much to bear. Man I wish I had more time to tell you about some of the amazing people I met this week, but really know that there's nothing more important in this life than showing love and gratitude for those we love and He who loves us most. 

SHARE THE LOVE OF THE SAVIOR WITH EVERYONE. PLS.

Muito Amor<3
Sister Staheli

ps. I will buy a new SD card this week to send pictures finally!! sorry folks I have been really trying

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